Im So Hungry of You...

Dear God,

im writing you this because im feeling really confused and dumb struck. tell me what i should do, tell me that the pain will be over soon, tell me that no matter what, i have you to lean on. because it feels like im going through this alone, on my own. so tell me that its going to be okay.

im tired of saying that im fine or that im okay, because i know, i dont meant any of them at all.

im tired of having to be used and pushed for people to get what they want, because im done, im done giving in.

and i find it harder now to trust anybody. because anytime, they will suddenly have the guts to turn around and tell you that everything was just a lie, that they were pretending. and im done believing and falling for the same thing all over and over again.

i let them in, and when they’re in, they’ll take whatever they can and then they leave me feeling really empty inside.

so im asking you God, to tell me that things will be different from now on because you’re the only one im counting on, leaning on and believing.

so im asking for you to not let me down, like how all the others do.

xoxo,
Dymphna