Should I or Not?

should i remember or not??? still a big question mark in my mind. but sometimes i feel want to cry and shout out loud, i want to tell that i make a big mistakes. why i still remember that...

i think its time i let you go...Good-bye is only truly painful if you know you'll never say hello again.Goodbyes always hurt whether it's the right thing to do or not.This is out last goodbye... it's over, just hear this and then I'll go; you gave me more to live for then you'll ever know.

xoxo,
Dymphna

Welcome Back

wooh!!! it's being such a long time i didn't blogging. life being such hectic through the months flies by...

i've missing my old life, were i can relax to the MAX and get my own times to do what i want to do.
but by now its really a tough times to get that back again. i missing the time were i still can snug in my bed, miss the time to pigging around the house, miss the time back during study time at U and miss my friends a lot with such a story a.k.a gossiping time we have been together that time.

but now, i've to focus on what i really want in my real life; it's working to the MAX to earn some money, learn how to be more mature in many aspect of life that i still don't get it (luck my man & family always there for me), dealing with students and colleague with so many kind of behavior, dealing with my own feelings that still don't trust to who i'm with now and so many other stuffs that i have to go through the years.

and its already in the end of the year...God be with me always and make me strong...i need You my Lord...

xoxo,
Dymphna

My Own Self

I’m like the morning sunshine
Flaunting a kind gentle smile
Upon my face
To hide uneasy feelings of
The day,
But cannot shield the sadness in my voice?
Or disguise the lump in my throat
Eyes reveal
The grief I cannot hide
Message unfolds and reveals its truth
As waves of tears fill my eyes can’t
Stop the flow, and
Words continue flying through my mind
Too many consequences in this world,
Only two choices in life
I will live and I
Will die
But I will never surrender
To my death without a fight,
I will live and breathe
The sun-rays and drink the rain water from above
Live happily a day at a
Time
Until my creator decides
But I will always be prepared for that
Final walk about, in the
Meantime
I will utter what I wish
Pray
Wherever my heart desires, no
One can change me,
Love me for who I’ am,

For I’ am my own self….

xoxo,
Dymphna

Royal Hobby Come Back

A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous. ~Ingrid Bergman

miss you my lovely man =)

xoxo,
Dymphna

New Updates!

It's August! and currently going to September. Times flies so fast. I can't hardly remember where I've to start my story now, cos I've been stop blogging for a long time. It's been a new world for me now cos;

1. got my carrier that i dream of (teaching)
2. posting to Kota Marudu (new place that never think I would be here today)
3. no more whining in live. (start grow old)
4. my love grow bigger since my man not around me. (but he keep on visiting me here, that's make me love him)
5. missing my puppies (biskut and zorro)
6. kuntut? I'm so speechless (every time I remember of her, make my tears running down, poor kuntut)
7. got new puppy (face like captain sparrow)
8. face a lot of students characters
9. new colleague, environment and routine
10. definitely now I have a new life without change any of me (so that's my man would not be worry...hehehe)

xoxo,
Dymphna

Random pictures of puppie

Kuntut's babies are getting big..bigger...and biggest ahead. They were like a babies to me too...hahaha funny and awkward...I love both of them =)

Zorro with black face and drop eye

Biskut + tiger as a background

playing together

owh....my Zorro

Biskut try to catch some attention

a sad face again...

long and lean Biskut

xoxo,
Dymphna

A teacher prayer

I want to teach my students how--

To live this life on earth,
To face its struggles and its strife
And to improve their worth.

Not just the lesson in a book,
Or how the rivers flow,
But to choose the proper path,
Wherever they may go.

To understand eternal truth,
And know right from wrong,
And gather all the beauty of
A flower and a song,

For if I help the world to grow
In wisdom and grace,
Then I feel that I have won
And I have filled my place.

And so I ask your guidance, God
That I may do my part,
For character and confidence
And happiness of heart.

Sincerely,
Dymphna

Followed

xoxo,
Dymphna

This is Me...

This is me when I’m BORED.

When I’m HUNGRY.

When you talked to me.

When you DIDN’T talk to me.

When I saw something that HURTS.

When I didn’t get my class lesson.

When I’m procrastinating.

When you broke my heart.

When you told me something that wasn’t good to hear.

When you lied to me.

When I’m REALLY excited.

When you told me I LOVE YOU.

When someone hurts me again.

When I’m with my friends.

When test results will be out tomorrow.

When I’m with you.

Im So Hungry of You...

Dear God,

im writing you this because im feeling really confused and dumb struck. tell me what i should do, tell me that the pain will be over soon, tell me that no matter what, i have you to lean on. because it feels like im going through this alone, on my own. so tell me that its going to be okay.

im tired of saying that im fine or that im okay, because i know, i dont meant any of them at all.

im tired of having to be used and pushed for people to get what they want, because im done, im done giving in.

and i find it harder now to trust anybody. because anytime, they will suddenly have the guts to turn around and tell you that everything was just a lie, that they were pretending. and im done believing and falling for the same thing all over and over again.

i let them in, and when they’re in, they’ll take whatever they can and then they leave me feeling really empty inside.

so im asking you God, to tell me that things will be different from now on because you’re the only one im counting on, leaning on and believing.

so im asking for you to not let me down, like how all the others do.

xoxo,
Dymphna

Love Bite Me

I am not a perfect girl. My hair doesn’t always stay in place, I spill a lot of things, and
I’m pretty clumsy, but I’m working on it.
and
when I think about it and take a step back, I remember how amazing life truly is and
that maybe I like being imperfect.

Long Lost Hair

Sob...sob...sob =( I miss my long hair...it takes about 1 year to make it long again. Uwaah...have to wait another 1 year for long straight hair. Sapa suru gatal mau putung pindik, bob style kunun...lastly it's really hard to manage...GOSH!!!

it's start with this long...(dye with mohangany colour)
then it keep on growing till...
I cut the front to make it's fringe...still it's long and OK...
suddenly...
Come to my mind to cut it this short (bob cut)...
make it more worse...I go do this
curly....hehehe.
and make it straight againand for the last transformation I make it cut at the end
supaya tidak kular...
padan muka... I've to wait for another long year to make it long like the 1st transformation.

xoxo,
Dym...

Happy Mother's Day

Dear mum,

As I look back at my life
I find myself wondering...
Did I remember to thank you for all that you have done for me?
For all the time you were by my side
to help and celebrate my success and accept the defeats?
Or for teaching me the value of hard work,
good judgment, courage and honesty?
If I've forgotten to express my gratitude for any of these things,
I am thanking you now and express my love for you.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY MUM...We love you

xoxo,
Dym...

Interview

WHOOOOHOOO!!! Interview GST successful. It's ok lah...ermm not really good, but still it's ok lah =)
The interview held at politeknik KK, I got my pengikut hehehe...(my mum & my aunt). I feel so nervous for this interview cos it's mean something to my career. If I fail through this interview "habis lah" no chance anymore.
When the next person go out from the room, I know it's my turn next. So I knock the door (tuk-tuk-tuk), open the door, give all my documents to the interviewer and he ask me to sit.
Then the discussion start as soon as I reach my 'buus' at the chair hahaha....the other interviewer a women start checking my details...and the other man ask me to introduce myself.
So...me apa lg start lah with perasaan yg bekobar-kobar hahaha...
Me: Nama saya Dymphna J John, berumur 24 thn, melanjutkan pengajian di Universiti Utara Malaysia dalam bidang Ijazah Sarjana Muda Pendidikan Pengurusan Pendidikan minor Multimedia Interaktif. Semasa SPM saya mendapat 1A untuk BM dan 6C untuk BI...gosh!!! (sambil tsengih2 ckp for the BI result) semasa di Uni. saya mengikuti kem pendidik yg dianjurkan oleh fakulti pendidikan, pernah mengikuti lawatan anjuran pembangunan masyarakat ke butterworth, semasa sekolah menengah saya pernah mewakili sekolah ke kem fasilitator PROSTAR di papar, mengikuti persembahan gimrama MSSM, mewakili sekolah ke pertandingan kuiz pengguna di SMK Tmn Tun Fuad peringkat bahagian (F.6), tarik tali (F.6) dan memegang jawatan naib presiden kelab drama (F.6) cheee....(seems like i am fluent right? But hell no, sometime the words are here and there. and there are paused in my sentence..hahahahaha)
Then he ask me again about pendidikan, mendidik, what I know about current issues of education and name of Men. KPM and Pengarah pendidikan Sabah...
Then the woman start to tell me to ready more about current issues of education and do not let student know better then ourselves. (Padan muka me, bikin malu jah...ehhhh)
I'll hope to get a better result later...God bless all of us who try our best in this interview..

xoxo,
Dym...

Always smile =)

xoxo,
Dymphna

I DO

I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything and everything and I will always care through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow for better for worse. I will love you with every beat of my heart.

xoxo,
Dym

Shout out LOUD!!!

"Everyone wants to take and nobody ever gives. Why does it always have to be me who gives??? Give me some space."

dym...

My Convocation

It's been 3 and half years in struggle for battle, laugh, joy and cry a lot. 28-03-2010 was the day that show how much I have been through out the years study at UUM, Kedah. It's a memorable day for me, my proud family and my beloved friends.

xoxo,
Dymphna